When you feel like your life has become a joke

When you see everyone around you acting as if they don't want you around. The feeling of being irrelevant at everything you do. When nothing is going right and you stay shattered under your blanket completely numb and clueless about your life. You know you got to do lots of stuffs but feel like not even starting . When you see darkness and not a single light of hope pops infront of you.....when you feel like your life has become a joke